16082019 I settled.
For a year, I was in an on and off again dating-relationship. I didn't think it had such an impact it did. Normally it was easy to move on. Once I don't feel appreciated/ valued, I just leave. And that has always been the case until this one person. I got attached, and there are a range of factors to this. Emotions were involved and I was in admiration of his being. To me, he was a successful career/ financial wise, smart, and everything I aspire to be. But there were so many red flags. For example the fact I didn't know his real name, reluctant to tell me his birthday (?), lied about not having a kid. The people I knew who I confided was just questioning why I was with this asswipe of a person. Not to mention the lack of reciprocation of effort. My younger self would have called me an idiot, but somehow a self limiting belief that "this is what I deserve" crawled its way to my being. I just kept thinking, "its okay, it will get better, he said he wants to ...
